Life (right now) is a quagmire – or – it’s all about focus, people!

May 18, 2012 at 9:36 am Leave a comment

This past week has been a whirlwind of things.

First off, my 99-year old grandmother is in the hospital. Last week, she had a fall, and while there wasn’t any lasting damage, and will eventually recover from that fall, she isn’t doing well as she has another infection. I went to go see her today, and I nearly cried. My awesome grandmother is so frail, and I’m afraid that she is dying. Even if she manages to get better, she will need to go into extended care. That’s a lot of stress for the family.

The Boy is still doing his three year old antics. The biggest parenting challenge right now is the constant power struggles that we have every single day. It’s hard on me and it’s hard on hubby. There are times when we are at our wit’s end trying to figure out the next step. Parenting is hard.

I had a job interview yesterday. It actually sounds like a good fit for me for the time being, but I do have misgivings about it. However, the one thing that I need to continually reminding myself is to trust in God. He’s been kicking me in the butt with this lesson over and over. I have to really let go of my anxiety around the job hunting thing. I even had two friends tell me in two separate times (and they don’t know each other) that if this was meant to be God’s plan, there will be no barriers, none. I feel like my ego has been stripped and taken for a beating. I feel uncertain about my abilities. I should have to even worry about this, but it’s easier said than done.

I’m learning a lot through my course right now, but I’m quickly realizing that if I had to work full-time and do a course, it would really drain me, and that’s not good for me or my family. I’ll still chug along with the courses, but we’ll see what happens.

Some things that God has been reminding me this past week:

Let God Solve Your Problems – trust that God will solve the problem for me, I just have to let it go to God.

God gives us trials, and for a reason. We must rise to it to show that we are working on our salvation, and not sit and whine about how life is unfair. Jesus must be apparent in all parts of our lives. Spiritual vitality, being able to face any trial in life through God. And the point is that we are to use how God has transformed us for others (also learning about this in the FACTS bible studies)

I need to develop Godly habits, and the first one being that God will provide. Self-pity equals self-interest, which is a sin. I just take and never give. God doesn’t like that. Again, I think of my friend’s comment that I am always negative. I am struggling with this habit, as this is a hard one for me to get right. I need to let go of the self-pity because God has provided so much for me. And I keep throwing it back into his face. Shame on me.

The antidote to failure is perseverance! Focusing on how we failed robs us of our confidence

I can only grow spiritually if I focus on God, and not my circumstances.

Things don’t go as we planned, but put our burdens on God.

So in conclusion:

  • Focus on God and He will let me grow spiritually
  • Stop whining and focusing on my own problems.

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FACTS – Week of May 14, 2012 FACTS – Week of May 28, 2012

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