Archive for August, 2012

… and life goes on …

So since my last update (which was exactly one month ago), the only thing that’s happened was that I went on an awesome trip to NYC with three of my best buds. It was an all girls’ trip, four single girls hitting the town. The trip was much needed, and I felt carefree for a while.

But all good things usually come to an end (most of the time). I came back and resumed my job search. While I had some leads, it’s summer, and not a lot happens then, especially around August. I’m not too discouraged about this particular hump, but I am a little discouraged about my general job hunt. Tomorrow marks the fifth month of unemployment, and it’s really this fact that is gnawing on me keenly.

Last night, after some more tears, I prayed to God for some comfort. Here is what he sent to me.

Be Confident in God’s Strength

Every day of your life, you have a choice:

  • You can focus on the obstacles before you, or …
  • You can be confident in the truth that God is pouring his strength into you.

Are You Ever Troubled?

Are you severely troubled right now? Are you afraid and confused by the waves and the turbulence God sovereignly allows to enter your life? Have you left no stone of your faith unturned, yet still not found any well of peace, joy, or comfort? Does your life seem completely barren to you? Then look up and receive the quiet contentment of the Lord Jesus.

Romans 5:1-4

5 Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we[a] have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we[b] boast in the hope of the glory of God. Not only so, but we[c] also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance;perseverance, character; and character, hope.

Be Undefeatable: Lean on the Lord

When you think you can’t do something on your own power, that’s OK. Lean on God, and he will give you his power to do what he’s called you to do. You lose your fear when God is near, and he’s promised to always be with you.

What’s been bothering me lately? Fear. Specifically, fear that I will never get any job. Coupled with the fact that I’m going stir crazy at home, I feel that I’ll never land any job, let alone the one that I want. That I will have to settle. It’s not so much the money (okay, it is a little bit more than I’m admitting), but it’s been a huge blow to my self-esteem and self-confidence. Something I’m trying to build back up slowly, but trying (and failing) to doing it God’s way.

Right now, my son has this whole week off from daycare. While I love my son and I think he’s the best thing since sliced bread, I can only take him in small doses, with a lot of me time in between. Very un-mother-like of me, but there you go. I was never meant to be a stay-at-home-anything (unless I’m working), and that’s what I’ve become, and I’m feeling a bit trapped. Job hunting is also a full-time job, so it’s been difficult for me (and therefore very frustrating) to schedule things like when to do my health expenses and meeting up with people. I always feel I may have to cancel on someone. It has happened more than once in the past.

But I will keep looking to and leaning on the Lord. Or at least try.

August 27, 2012 at 8:17 am Leave a comment